Peace at last, Peace at last!

Hey readers, It's Sunday!!
Ok, so I wasn't able to post anything on Friday because I was super busy. I have now come to the realization that when I first started this blog it was just for fun, just something for me to do in order to express my feelings. Well...soon after I decided Wednesdays and Fridays seemed to be my days of leisure so I decided to post my entries on those days. Ha I should've known something would happen. What I'm trying to get at here is FORGET WHAT I SAID BEFORE!! If I choose to write and post something every day or once a week I hope my readers stay loyal and patient! Above all I do promise to stay true to who I am and write about what is in my heart!

So, with that being said today I am going to talk about change!

I have always been the kind of person who HATES change!! I like to have order and routine. Some may say I'm boring but I'd like to say I'm just stuck in my ways!! I'm not sure if it's the change in weather or the ending of October but I am all about change this year. At the beginning of October I told myself "okay girl, you can either enjoy life as it comes and have fun OR you can try to plan things out as usual only to be disappointed when things don't go as planned". Well, I chose my first option. October has been so good to me and I honestly feel so amazing!!

Today as I was sitting in church I realized the most beautiful thing. Every Sunday before church is dismissed we are given 3 invitations. 1. Accept Christ as your personal savior if you haven't already. 2. Become a church member if you don't have a church family. Or 3. Recommit your life to God if you feel like you have gotten off track or something. For a long time during my sophomore and Junior year I wrestled with the first invitation. There was no doubt in my heart that I accepted God as my one and only personal savior but I was TERRIFIED of getting baptized. I have this weird thing with water but let me not get into that right now. After prayer and a quick talk with my Pastor I did it!! April of my junior year in High School I sealed the deal so to speak. I got baptized and survived. My life was great. Everything was going smooth, graduation came and went, college started and I honestly didn't realize it until last month that I had NO PERSONAL relationship with The Lord.

I have recently begun a spiritual journey to grow as a Christian and become a true child of God. Today, sitting in the pews, listening to the invitations was the first time ever that I felt true peace in my heart. I wasn't scared to be baptized. I wasn't wondering if God really cared about my life. I wasn't pondering a recommitment. I was completely at peace with my life. It was such a beautiful moment for me. I know God has slowly but surely gotten me to this oh so sweet peacefulness and I just love every minute of it. The little changes that I have recently made in my life have already made a tremendous change in my life. Today God really opened my eyes to his love and I NEVER want to close my eyes again.

God's love is so amazing and indescribable! I hope you can experience or are experiencing the extraordinary love of The Lord. 

Peace and Blessings Y'all

xo

C.

 

Fill My Heart and Flood My Ears!!

Like I mentioned in "Mr. Small Town" recently something was said to me which changed my life forever! "I don't know why you go to church. It doesn't even work for you" still makes my bones shake. After I heard this I wasn't sure if I should cry of embarrassment or laugh at his pure stupidity...well I did BOTH but first I prayed. Yup, I prayed, THEN cried of embarrassment, and finally laughed at his stupidity and let me tell you exactly why.

I've always been told that prayer is a powerful thing. Of course I never actually thought about it, I just did it. I prayed that god would make my remote work because I was too lazy to go get new batteries. I would pray that my professor would dismiss class early because I wasn't sure how much longer I could stand listening to his monotone voice. Are you getting the picture? I wasn't praying correctly!! I was just talking to myself...LITERALLY. Now please don't think that's all I would ask for. I would pray for bigger things but the point I'm trying to make is I wasn't making an effort to build a closer relationship with God. That Sunday night boy did I pray!!! I prayed 'til I cried. I prayed that God would look into my sinful heart and help me, really help me be a better person with a godly heart. My crying led me to realize how much of a hypocrite I was and that, my friend, is absolutely embarrassing. What kind of Christian was I if people couldn't see the Christianity flowing out of me when I met or had a conversation with them? To me a good Christian lives and acts like God. You know...WWJD? I know we are humans and full of sins but what good is calling yourself a Christian if you don't even put forth an effort to act like one? I was mainly embarrassed because if one person could see that I didn't put much effort into living up to my Christian duties then everyone else did as well. Finally I laughed at his stupidity. I thought to myself and realized that Mr. Small Town was...well quite frankly he's an idiot. One day my judgment will come and Me, Myself, and I will have to answer to The Lord. My family and friends won't be there to say "Oh God ,no, she didn't mean to do that." I will have to testify for why I chose to live my life the way I did. In the end only God can judge me and that's a fact!! (Ecc 3:17; Romans 2:16)

So after going through my moment of reflection I started to think of ways in which I could live like a Christian and enhance my relationship with my heavenly father. Okay, I'm not gonna lie, first I Googled it. NO JOKE. Every day people post blogs just like this one expressing their views and beliefs so I thought maybe I would find an answer online. That didn't work. Then I was going through my collection of books and I found my The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For? by Rick Warren and Princess Unaware: Finding the Fabulous in Every Day by Brenda Garrison. I decided to start the 10 week Princes Unaware program and I recommend it to every girl who is truly seeking God to work in their life every day. The next thing I wanted to do was limit what I listen to on the radio. I started to really think about what I listen to when I'm driving. I could either listen to some ridiculous rapper talking about drinking, sex, and drugs or I can listen to KLOVE (a fantastic national christian radio station here's the link: http://www.klove.com/listen/player.aspx). Of course I chose KLOVE. Throughout the day the station fills my heart and floods my ears with encouraging words and amazing songs that help me with my journey to the center of Gods unchanging, loving hands. I still listen to country music, by golly, I will never stop listening to country!!

I've decided that I desperately want to live for The Lord. I want people to look at me and think "Wow that girl's got Jesus". I don't want to ever wonder if I'm getting my golden ticket into heaven. I want to KNOW with pure confidence that when the conductor of the Heavenly Express stops in front of me I'll be on a one way trip to the gates of Heaven. Life is short and I don't want to live for anyone else but God.

Every day is a challenge and I find myself in some situations that are not so Christiany but I talk to God every morning and I ask him to help me make Godly decisions as I go about my day. I often repeat this quote from a song by Sanctus Real: "So Father, give me the strength to be everything I'm called to be, Oh Father, show me the way, Father, lead me 'cause I CAN'T do this alone" (listen to it NOW http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLr6G8Xy5uc). With time I know I will be exactly where I want to be spiritually and my gosh, I'm really looking forward to that day. My Religion is very important to me and I will always put God first in everything I do. It is because of God that I have such a blessed life.

Peace and Blessings Y'all

xo

C.

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Top 10!

Hey Y'all, I'm back and I have a plan for exactly what I want to do with this blog. After thinking it over I've decided on a SET blogging schedule. I will be posting on Wednesdays and Fridays! Wednesday will be my serious, ranting, sharing time and Fridays will be my fun time where I will do my "Top Ten" for the week!! I'm looking forward to it so I hope my readers stay tuned!
 

Okay, so it's Friday and my first Top Ten!! I've decided that I will start with my ten favorite things to watch! They will be in no particular...Here we go!!

1. Grey's Anatomy. Season 9 just premiered a few Thursdays ago and as always Shonda Rhimes didn't disappoint. Grey's is filled with so much greatness it really is the bee’s knees. Each week I look forward to the drama and love between every character. I have been watching Grey's since season one (thanks to my wonderful Aunt) and every season Rhimes has a way of captivating the viewer. I feel like I know each one of them. When there is a death on the show I kid you not it takes me a couple of days to get over the death. When a viewer can feel so close to a character you know the writers are doing something right!! If you are not watching Grey's Anatomy I feel bad for you...HONESTLY!!

 

2. Real Housewives...THE WHOLE FRANCHISE. First of all if you didn't know this already you know this now! Andy Cohen is not just a TV personality. This amazing man is the Executive Vice President of Development and Talent at the Bravo cable television network. That's right, every lady from Teresa Gudice to Nene Leaks are a product of Mr. Cohen. Andy has the ultimate decision on who is able to appear on the shows, what they do and how they act; he even gets to choose who gets fired (Jill Zaren, Sheree Whitfield, and Danielle Staub). Bravo is an amazing network. Andy Cohen is a well-educated spectacular man. And the Real Housewives Franchise really just melts my butter!! Just catch an episode...or 5. Believe me it's addicting!!

3. Weeds. NEED I SAY MORE? If you find yourself living a "goody-good" life. You try not to break rules. You try to please everybody. You are scared to even see a cop pull up right next to you while you're driving. Then this is a show for you because it’s everything you're not. Nancy Botwin is a drug dealer who finds herself trying to support her boys after the sudden death of her husband. Oh and did I mention she lives in a rich California Suburb. YEAH!! Each season Botwin finds herself with a different race (blacks, Mexicans, Russians), doing whatever she can to score some great weed. I am really not giving the show justice. It's mind blowing, sexy, bad ass, sad, just every emotion ever. WATCH WEEDS! IT'S ON NETFLIX...GO, GO!!



4. Army Wives. I got into this show this past summer. I really enjoy watching it but please be prepared to cry! I am not an emotional person and I try not to cry...like ever. This show pulls my heart strings and squeezes my eyeballs dry. I break down watching this show. I wouldn't say Army Wives is amazing or addicting but I will say that it is really, really good for being a Lifetime series. Viewers are able to go into the lives of five army families. There are good fake bombs, funny girl talk, and death...lots of death. Seasons 1-5 are on Netflix. I'm not gonna stress that you watch it but it made my top ten. The show it enjoyable. Enough said.






5. Friends. OMG, OMG, OMG (Oh My Gosh! I don't use God's name in vain) Friends like SATC is a classic!! I know I'm only 19 so things aren't actually a classic BUT...it's a classic to me! Friends is one of those shows that...hmm...they live a life that everyone wishes they could have. They live in New York. They work but are never there. They have petty arguments but they still remain friends. Only in a perfect world!! What I love most about the show is the fact that you don't have to watch every episode to know what's going on. For thirty minutes I am able to laugh and dream about a life with my five closest friends living in a city and always having fun. A girl can dream right??

 

6. Sex and the City. Where do I begin? Ok, I know, EVERY YOUNG WOMAN, WOMAN, ELDERLY WOMAN, MAN, EVERYONE should just watch this show. It's a great way to learn about who you are as a woman in this crazy world. Are you a charming, calm, scatter brain, constantly tossing up and rejecting different views on just about anything that does or might impact modern women's sex lives; trying almost everything and constantly getting disappointed Carrie Bradshaw? Or a prestigious, high old-fashioned moral standard, lovable but insecure Charlotte York. Maybe you relate more with Miranda Hobbs a red-hair lawyer determined to score professionally and to be tough in love too, yet her only faithful lover is an insecure nerd. Or Samantha Jones a feminist's hero and the utterly unashamed voice of lust at their meetings, an unstoppable nymphomaniac man-eater who can flirt the pants off almost any man (often literally and fast) without a hint of commitment. You go ahead and figure it out. Fact is the show is great because it's relatable.

 

7. American Horror Story. Season two of AHS just started and it's already off to a great start. AHS is a very dark, twisted, scary show. There really isn't much to say but I will say this; American Horror Story is NOT for everyone and the same people who produced Glee produced AHS. WEIRD...but I LOVE IT!!

 

8. The Walking Dead. Okay here is another dark, twisted, VERY gory show. It takes place in Georgia and the whole show is based around a Zombie apocalypse. This series is good for keeping you on your feet and it is super addicting as well. I really enjoy watching it.









9. Sons of Anarchy. My, My, My!! Sons is well...CRAY CRAY! I really don't even know where to begin. There are drugs, women, gangs, killings, alliances, motorcycles, whites, blacks, Mexicans, Irish. Sons of Anarchy is a well written show. It's on FX (kind of surprising because of the graphics) and to be quite honest I'm still mourning a characters death! I feel like this is a MUST SEE!

10. How I Met Your Mother. This show, this show, this show!! Okay first of all this is the show where you HAVE to pay attention to small details! Like Friends HIMYM is based around a group of friends who live in the city and live an awesome life. There is a womanizer, a hopeless romantic, a couple, and a care free "I do what I want" character. So many lessons can be learned while watching and there are an endless amount of quotable moments. If you are ever bored and need a good laugh go to Netflix and start watching HIMYM.

So there you have it, my very first Top Ten! I chose TV shows because I enjoy them. Some people really enjoy a good movie but I, I enjoy a really good show! Hope you enjoy.

Peace and Blessings Y'all
xo
C.
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Mr. Small Town

It's my second blog and yes, I'm gonna do it! I'm gonna talk about a boy y'all!

Now I know its super cliché but I'm gonna share a HORRIBLE experience and I'm gonna be totally honest with this. REMINDER I AM SHARING WHAT I WAS TOLD! IM NOT SURE IF THEY WERE LIES OR NOT...

Okay...here we go...

I am a 19 year old college student so of course I have all the answers. lol totally kidding!!

A little over a month ago I had started "talking" to a guy who was absolutely all wrong for me!! He is super country, down home, "lets drink a 24 pack of beer each", fishing, hunting, small town guy...that honestly should've been a red flag right there but me being a good Christian and on a quest to make some major changes in my life (will talk about  it in my next blog) decided to give him a chance. I wasn't trying to be the "fixer up" type or doing some sort of charity case. I just wanted to do something different. So I start talking to Mr. Small Town and he completely turns my life upside down. He did it in a weird way. In the short period of a month I found myself turning into the girl I always said I wouldn't be. I was making time to answer his calls and making sure I was available whenever I heard my phone ring. I know what you're thinking "HELLO CHRISTIAN THAT'S WHAT GIRLS DO" but correction Hun that's what desperate girls do. I'm not gonna lie, I LOVE attention and I really liked that he called me because I felt like I was in middle school again. Our phone calls were always about 3 hours long but I'm a selfish college girl. In 3 hours I could eat cookies, watch Grey's Anatomy, and bullshit an essay. My time is valuable!!

Okay, so let me transition to the actual phone calls. This Mr. Small Town was very manipulative and a bit extra. First of all he talked A LOT..a lot, a lot. I never was able to get a word in. NOT FAIR HUH? I like to talk but every conversation I would find myself just being a listener for 2 whole hours. again..RED FLAG!! Second he was the guy who tells you "oh I like you, I want to settle down but here's the E! True Hollywood Story of my Ex" UH NO!! WHAT ON EARTH MAKES YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND? And finally every conversation would end up with my best friend being brought up. He would tell me all about her past relationship, he would remind me of a moment in my life that I am so desperately trying to forget, he would call her a liar, a bad friend, and suggest that she liked him and wanted to be with him. I found myself starting to question our friendship...again RED FLAG (SORRY AMIGA I LOVE YOU TO DEATH! IT WAS A MOMENT OF BAD JUDGMENT)

I was slowly turning into that girl who wants to make the relationship work so she does what she can to do so! I've NEVER been that girl. I'm the one who doesn't care what people think and live a life of Cupcakes and Rainbows (for the most part lol). Mr. Small Town was toxic!! Okay, yes he made me smile and a little happy but he is EVERYTHING I'm not!! He was very cocky and talked about how much he ran the whole county! He would constantly remind me of my rudeness and then he said something that I will honestly never forget and It has very much changed my life forever!! One Sunday night Mr. Small Town called me to say hey before he went fishing (so he said) and then he had the nerve to tell me "I don't know why you go to church. It doesn't even work for you"

LET ME TELL YOU RIGHT NOW!! I AM A YOUNG CHRISTIAN WOMAN. I AM VERY BLESSED AND ATTEND CHURCH ALMOST EVERY SUNDAY! I will absolutely be addressing this and writing about it more in my next blog.

His statement rocked me to my core. I felt so little for a good day and a half. ( I don't believe in depression) Whether he was kidding or being honest I will never know because that was the last time I talked to Mr. Small Town. I would like to personally thank him though. I don't care if he ever reads this; he probably won't but Thank You. Mr. Small Town you have changed my life in a very good way. I now know exactly what I want in life. I am so happy now and my relationship with God has gotten so much better. You were an eye opener and I am truly forever thankful.

 

Whoever reads this I would like to remind you not to ever change for someone else. I am 19 and very stuck in my ways. I want to tell you that I am a strong believer in prayer and like my momma told me; "Even if you are just "friends" with a guy say a prayer and put it in God's hands because he knows what's best for you"

xoxo

C.

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Getting Started

So this is my very first blog and I'm just going to write and rant about various topics until I get familiar with the whole concept. I am currently a student at Del Mar College and I am studying to be a teacher. My life is so crazy and I constantly have things running through my mind. I hope to be a known blogger one day but until then I'll just take it day by day!!

So here are some things I would like for y'all to know! first of all I'm a proud Texas Woman!! I love my state oh so much!! Texas is Texellent!! lol

next, I am a super girly girl!! I am in love with all things girly, pink, glittery, texas, and simply southern!!

this is all y'all need to know for now!! I hope to get some followers or people who read my blog just to let me know what I should and shouldn't do. I would love for some feed back because I am super serious about this!!

xoxo
CLH