Spring '17

Hello there and happy spring semester! Well, that only applies to my college friends but I hope your January is going fantastically! I am currently writing from the library and I have a feeling it will be my second home this semester. It is an exciting and very scary realization because there is no T.V. stuck on Bravo. lol As I am entering this semester I have a few goals and expectations for myself aside from the ones of my professors. As I sit here and drink my homemade iced coffee with a side of white cheddar popcorn and some JB on Spotify, I can’t help but to see these huge groups of students already studying and already getting into the swing of things. I wonder if they are just putting on a front because honestly, I went to sleep early last night and still have no energy to giggle with a whole group of girls. OR stare at a textbook until my next class. I am sitting thinking about if Cynthia from last night’s episode of My 600 Pound Life ever decided to take Dr. Now seriously and lose the weight. I tried to find her on social media for a recent update but that was a fail. Not only am I still stuck on Cynthia but I am completely low key freaking out about my course load for this semester. Clearly not every college student is the same and I am not going to have everything figured out by day 2….I’m okay with that.

My Aspirations In Life…*BEYONCE VOICE*

So this semester I want to try and not compare myself to other college students. The world will not be over if I don’t find a group of 7 girls to study with. I’ll be fine if I sit alone and listen to my random Spotify playlists. I have been in college for what feels like forever and that's a story for a different blog, but every time I'm on campus I cannot help but to compare myself to them. I don't go overboard or into a depression but I wonder how they do it all. My conclusion is this...every one is different. We learn differently, we care about different things, I am not going to be a "typical" college student because there is no such thing. When I finally realized everyone is struggling with their own personal tragedy I was able to really enjoy college a lot more.

I want to be more proactive in my assignments. Okay this is hard for me! Like extremely hard, bible, omg! Hahaha!! If you know me, you know I am obsessed with my T.V. shows and DVR. I really want to make more of an effort to focus in on what I have to do and not wait until the last minute it’s due…literally.

#fitlife…
Well not 100%...but I want to utilize the on campus gym way more than I did last semester. The other day when I waited 359 minutes at the DMV, I finally finished the Khloe Kardashian book. I say finally because my sister gave it to me last year for Christmas. Anyway, I took a lot out of that book. I love how she writes about working out becoming more of a therapy for her. I totally get it. Instead of trying to make these crazy fitness goals and giving up my favorite foods, I want to work out more often so that I don’t have to be so out of breath when I walk up a flight of stairs on my way to class. And don’t act like it doesn’t happen to you!!

Omg sign me up!!!!
This semester I hope to become more involved in life. It has been a really long time since I have joined a club or attended a bible study or volunteered my time for a great cause. I want to get back into more of a community. I really hope to just be present, make more friends, and learn new things.

This semester is going to be amazing I can just feel it!!



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Peace & Blessings,

C.

#2017

          I would like to start this blog by saying Hello, I’m Christian. I first started this blog as Miss Christian back in 2012. I strayed away from my blog and always knew I wanted to keep writing but I just did not know what I wanted to write about exactly or where I wanted my blog to go. I have since changed my blog name to Texas Christian (also my Instagram & twitter name so check it out) and to be honest it may change again in the near future. I am exploring different options for this blog and it is all so exciting. Enough chit chat…lets get to the good stuff!

            So like I said before, the last time I truly blogged was in 2012! I can’t believe it has been so long and I most importantly cannot believe how much I have changed since then. This year I really want to blog and blog a lot! I’m not looking for attention or some sort of internet stardom, I simply want to keep a digital journal. I want to be able to share my thoughts and feelings publicly because it is easy to feel like you’re the only one going through something. Gawk, I really hate that feeling! I want to be able to keep moments for myself but also share them with others. Life is so much better when you share and interact with others. I have a pull towards my blog this year and I love it. It’s going to be so fun!  

            For much of 2016 I was “quiet”. I felt an internal silence which was just so weird to me. During the final days of last year I was really racking my brain trying to figure out why 2016 felt so odd. I finally found my answer on January 1^st during worship at church. Back in the beginning of last year I asked God to silence me in order to hear his voice. If I can be completely honest, I didn’t hear his voice all that often but boy did he silence me! Let me explain a bit further, I have learned that in order to hear God’s voice you must seek it. So during 2016 I didn’t meet God halfway. He just completely silenced me. Not everyone will understand this and I'm okay with that. This is one hundred percent my experience.

Silence: What I’ve Learned

            Last year I really felt like a shell going through the motions. I withdrew from serving at church. I was not very social, I really spent a lot of time to myself and in my own thoughts. Looking back now, I am so thankful for this time. That season of silence was what I needed because as soon as the clock struck midnight God spoke to me! God gave me such an internal confidence and reassurance. I cannot explain the feeling because it was so supernatural. I needed to be silent last year in order to receive the brand new drive, will, and dedication God has called of me for 2017. Last year I dealt with a lot of emotions. I put up with more than I should have. I didn’t stand up for myself when I probably should have. I didn’t live every day with excitement and joy. 2016 was rough.

Here’s What: My Voice

            Now I want to share my experience during Sunday’s service with you! Its so exciting! Once I rang in 2017, at home with my family, I went to bed and prayed. I instantly felt a calming and thrill at the same time, it was weird. The next morning I woke up and headed to church so excited and during service GOD SPOKE! After a year of not truly seeking God’s voice and presence in my daily life, he made his presence known. God told me to speak! He gave me the ok to go out 100% confidently into the world and speak! My head has been rushing with ideas ever since and I haven't stopped talking about 2017 ever since, just ask my little sister! Lol

The Game Plan

            So going forward I have a million plans and ideas. I most importantly want to be constantly conversational with God! I want to actively purse him and his word. I don’t want to make this crazy list of unrealistic goals. I simply want to be more intentional and truly love every single day of my life. I hope to have more of a Christ like love. I hope to grow as a person and allow God to lead the direction of my life. It is so hard for us as mere humans to give up control. I am so very thankful for my season of silence and I cant wait to see what is in store for the season of my voice.

Last Minute Thoughts:

1. Bear with me! My blog is under construction

2. Follow, Like, Share, Comment! // Instagram & Twitter: texaschristian_

3. Thank you! If I have 1 reader or 10, I am thankful for your time.

4. Pray for me, I'm praying for you!

Peace & Blessings,

C.