I would like to start this blog by saying Hello, I’m
Christian. I first started this blog as Miss Christian back in 2012. I strayed
away from my blog and always knew I wanted to keep writing but I just did not
know what I wanted to write about exactly or where I wanted my blog to go. I
have since changed my blog name to Texas Christian (also my Instagram &
twitter name so check it out) and to be honest it may change again in the near
future. I am exploring different options for this blog and it is all so
exciting. Enough chit chat…lets get to the good stuff!
So like I said before, the last time I truly blogged was
in 2012! I can’t believe it has been so long and I most importantly cannot
believe how much I have changed since then. This year I really want to blog and
blog a lot! I’m not looking for attention or some sort of internet stardom, I simply
want to keep a digital journal. I want to be able to share my thoughts and
feelings publicly because it is easy to feel like you’re the only one going
through something. Gawk, I really hate that feeling! I want to be able to keep
moments for myself but also share them with others. Life is so much better when
you share and interact with others. I have a pull towards my blog this year and
I love it. It’s going to be so fun!
For much of 2016 I was “quiet”. I felt an internal silence
which was just so weird to me. During the final days of last year I was really
racking my brain trying to figure out why 2016 felt so odd. I finally found my
answer on January 1st during worship at church. Back in the beginning
of last year I asked God to silence me in order to hear his voice. If I can be
completely honest, I didn’t hear his voice all that often but boy did he silence
me! Let me explain a bit further, I have learned that in order to hear God’s
voice you must seek it. So during 2016 I didn’t meet God halfway. He just
completely silenced me. Not everyone will understand this and I'm okay with
that. This is one hundred percent my experience.
Silence: What I’ve Learned
Last year I really felt like a shell going through the
motions. I withdrew from serving at church. I was not very social, I really
spent a lot of time to myself and in my own thoughts. Looking back now, I am so
thankful for this time. That season of silence was what I needed because as
soon as the clock struck midnight God spoke to me! God gave me such an internal
confidence and reassurance. I cannot explain the feeling because it was so
supernatural. I needed to be silent last year in order to receive the brand new
drive, will, and dedication God has called of me for 2017. Last year I dealt
with a lot of emotions. I put up with more than I should have. I didn’t stand
up for myself when I probably should have. I didn’t live every day with excitement
and joy. 2016 was rough.
Here’s What: My Voice
Now I want to share my experience during Sunday’s
service with you! Its so exciting! Once I rang in 2017, at home with my family,
I went to bed and prayed. I instantly felt a calming and thrill at the same
time, it was weird. The next morning I woke up and headed to church so excited
and during service GOD SPOKE! After a year of not truly seeking God’s voice and
presence in my daily life, he made his presence known. God told me to speak! He
gave me the ok to go out 100% confidently into the world and speak! My head has
been rushing with ideas ever since and I haven't stopped talking about 2017 ever
since, just ask my little sister! Lol
The Game Plan
So going forward I have a million plans and ideas. I most
importantly want to be constantly conversational with God! I want to actively
purse him and his word. I don’t want to make this crazy list of unrealistic
goals. I simply want to be more intentional and truly love every single day of
my life. I hope to have more of a Christ like love. I hope to grow as a person
and allow God to lead the direction of my life. It is so hard for us as mere
humans to give up control. I am so very thankful for my season of silence and I
cant wait to see what is in store for the season of my voice.
Last Minute Thoughts:
1. Bear with me! My blog is
under construction
2. Follow, Like, Share, Comment!
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3. Thank you! If I have 1
reader or 10, I am thankful for your time.
4. Pray for me, I'm praying
for you!
Peace & Blessings,
C.
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